I got up pretty late today and decided I would have some lamb chops on the Bbq for lunch. And because everybody likes lamp chops I invited my family over (parents, brother etc.). I called my H to see how things are with the kids and said he could bring them earlier if he wanted and he could stay as well for lunch. He said he had an upset stomach and didn't know if he would stay to eat but that he would bring the kids for lunch.
Well, he came and stayed and we had lunch all together. My gas Bbq grill run out of gas (first time I used it since he left) and had to continue with electric grill and oven. He offered to go get a replacement for the Bbq (don't know how you guys call it) and I accepted gracefully because it's heavy and couldn't do it on my own. Wasn't successful, all places were closed. He was worried how I would carry it full on my own...
Lunch went fine although my parents felt awkward since they don't understand these kind of things- too modern for their traditional ways being separated and "friends". Of course I didn't give them a choice and I've been upbeat sendinig messages towards all that I am Ok with this and I want to them to be Ok with it as well. H felt awkard too. But he seemed releived to be able to be here again and everybody accepting him. I considered this a "testing of waters" for him and it went OK. Since he is afraid of coming back, I will make sure all of his worries will be gone one by one...
My brother and his wife who are very supportive told me the same thing. They were really upbeat and friendly with him and said the felt him being embarassed only in the beginning.
He left and I gave him food and chocolate cake for him and his friend at work that always liked my cooking. When I said for whome the cake was he smiled and looked like he liked my thought. (he LL is acts of services for him and his family and friends)
On his way out I said "we'll talk tomorrow?" and he replied : "of course! if I make it on time at the airport I'll give you a call".
While cooking and getting the table ready, I touched him a couple of times, His back, brushed off his chest while passing by, not sexually, just breaking the ice of "touch". I don't know if he noticed, I was pretty cool and subtle about it.
