I awoke with the thought that It's too late, it's been too long of a seperation, 15 months (sounds short, feels long). Early on she said she missed me, missed having a family (but at the same time she was choosing her party life over time with the kids and had chosen another man over me).
Now I believe she cares about me, but doesn't miss me anymore. She doesn't want me, but doesn't want another woman to have me either (it's been this way all along). I basing this in part on my own feelings. The thought of her with OM doesn't bother me anymore and we've been apart so long I don't miss her the way I did in the beginning. I have my own life now. She must be in a similar place.
In some ways I think she is still confused. I think now I am too.
I know I am emotional lately. I'm sure that is partly due to my stressed out state.
Last edited by sleeper; 03/23/0803:02 PM.
"The answers are within you" (can't remember who). Unfortunately, so is the bullshit.
