Well, I'm pretty disappointed w/ W's accusations, but I'm not sure if she'll ever be able to come back after this. I think I'm able to move past anything, but it is and will be irrelevant if W isn't willing to change and learn to accept herself. I can't save my marriage alone, but I can make a better me who is a wonderful father, an excellent husband, and a good man. If I can do my part, then it will be completely up to W to do hers. Ultimately, she'll have to make the choice as to what she wants to do. I wish I could change her mind for her, but that would be controlling as well as impossible.
Well, I just finished hiding all of the Easter Bunny's eggs for D, so I thought I'd post and then try to get a few more hours of sleep before D rips herself out of bed on the egg hunt.
Anyway, D and I had a great day yesterday. We got up around 8 and played w/ her "Littlest Pet Shop" toys in her room off and on until 9 or so when we finally pulled ourselves together and went out for breakfast (fyi - when I asked D if she wanted to go out to breakfast she said "I was hoping you'd ask that."). After breakfast, we ran errands, bought each of us two new pairs of shoes, then hit up Walmart for movies for D to keep here at my house.
We came home, I cleaned up and we went to a friend's house for their annual Easter Party. They have a great house w/ a wonderful yard and ALWAYS put on an excellent party. In any event, D ate well and collected more candy-filled eggs than any child would ever need. D also was spending a great deal of time running around on the grass and playing w/ the other kids, so she was busy and very, very happy.
After the party, I took D ice skating and for her 2nd time out, she did really, really well. She was so eager to leave the "training area" w/ her skating trainer and head around the ice w/ the big people that she simply took off w/ out me and I found myself dashing across the ice to catch up w/ her. She was so focused and determined and she really was much improved.
We skated non-stop for about 45 minutes, then I arranged for us to ride on the Zamboni in between sessions and D loved that. She waved to the people in the rink like she was in a parade and she lauged and giggled the entire time. After the Zamboni experience, D did one lap on the big ice and was done for the night.
I turned in our skates, took her to Peter Piper Pizza's game room where we won tickets for meaningless crap and then home to bed. Once home, she got into her brand new silk-feeling Disney Princess pajamas my mother had sent her and we did the usual couple of SpongeBobs before putting her to sleep in her room.
We did call W at 8 (for the record, I ALWAYS call her when I have D, but she rarely if ever will initiate D's contact w/ me -- frustrating). D and W talked for 2 minutes and D handed me the phone to talk w/ W and W hung up w/out saying a word. It is too bad b/c I was actually going to tell W that our dog (her beloved Peetie) had another small seizure yesterday and the vet said not to worry, but to monitor him. He had had one this summer, or early fall, and she was freaked, so I was going to fill her in, but if she doesn't want to talk w/ me, I'll give her the information when I see her today.
I'm sure she'll send a text message as to where I'm dropping off D today so she can avoid speaking to me, but right now, as Kalni put it, I need to expect EVERYTHING from her. Thus, I'm prepared for every scenerio that I can conjure up and a few more I haven't thought of too.
That is what we did yesterday. It was a great day and we really loved being w/ each other. I'm not sure what is on the agenda for today, but I'm hoping for a few more hours of sleep before she actually rises and lets me know what we're doing.
