Hello Mr. MLC part deux!!

[mymonkeybug]

Well today I get to spend my first Easter in 19 years alone. It will be my first Easter without being a part of the big family dinner at my in-laws with the nieces and nephews and sister's and brother's in law. It will be my first Easter of not being out in the in laws yard with my sister's in law hiding plastic filled eggs while the dad's occupy the kids elsewhere and then letting them all lose once we have hidden all the eggs. I won't be there taking pictures and helping the younger nieces and nephews find some eggs before the older kids get them all.

But I have to put on a happy face when H gets here to pick up the kids this morning. I will be dressed and made up looking as if I have plans although I don't. I have been invited somewhere with some friends but there will be kids there and people I don't know and today I really don't think I feel like being around other people's kids and not my own and I really don't feel like beig with any strangers today although I may make some new friends by doing so.

Days like today and other times when historically H and I and the kdis have been with his large family will be the toughest ones to handle as this progress'. Xmas day was the pits and so too will today. The monthly family dinner's at his folks house that I no longer am a part of also suck. Granted his family and I may not have always seen eye to eye but damn we did enjoy spending time together during these occassions.

Maybe if the movie theaters are open I will go see a movie all by my lonesome...heehee, yeah that was a major fake laugh by the way.