Lisa, Did they take photos of you when your H attacked you? Do you have copies? If so please force yourself to look at them. Do you really want to stay with a man who did this to you? How do you know that if you allow him home it won't be your kids next time. Could you forgive yourself if that happened?
As for the guy you have a crush on please leave it at that for now. IF there is still interest when you have completed proceedings then maybe but not now you need your energy for you and your kids.
Take care (((((((((hugs)))))))))
Me 43 XH 45 M 2.7.88 Divorce 7.10.09 Kids D20,S17 & D15