Girl, I just about started crying when I saw that you had posted to me in the prayer forum. I sat here looking at the screen just saying "EMILY???", like a dork. I knew exactly who you were and I am so glad that you have done okay for yourself and the girls since you were last here. Emily, you have to keep doing that now. Kevin is obviously the same turd he continuously proved himself to be when you were pregnant and after the baby was born. The man does not deserve you or your time, tears or devotion. And YOU deserve SO MUCH BETTER than him!
Emily you know I am one that believes with the right tools (mostly faith) you can DB most any situation. The thing is, you have to be dealing with a person that at least on some level wants to change. Kevin hates Kevin and loves mediocrity and Emily can't save him no matter how much she changes, grows up and makes up for her own past mistakes. You can't save him and you DON'T need his kind of baggage in your life.
IF you want to give this one more shot, I will be here with you for as long as you want to keep at it but I'm telling you, you will be fighting demons that are not yours and it will be balls to the wall from the second you decide you're going to fight. I have been in a remarkably similar fight and it has almost been the death of me. Literally AND spiritually. I will not encourage it. But if you want to stand, I will stand with you.
