I dont' blame you, D is prob the hardest thing one ever has to go through, it's uncharted territory, changing one's direction in life 180 degrees. Just sending some prayers your way, that you find the strenght to do what you have to do. I look at your sigby/history so much like mine (my hell also started back in 05, w/piecing in 06 and ow involved on and off through 07). Looking at it like that, on someone elses's sitch, DAMN!! that is a LOT, a heck of a LOT to go through!! you are not taking this desicion lightly!! you truly have put yourself out there for so long and beared terrible treatment by your H, that truly D will actually give you the peace of mind you haven't had since 06.
It saddens me of course to be going through this, but I don't think i've had this peace of mind since...well, years! I actually have peace and dont' live in limbo, wondering where my H is and if his moodiness means he's unhappy with me or depressed or thinking of ow or about leaving...BLEAH! what a horrible way to live! that is no life my friend.
You can do it))))
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
