no expectations 6

[peacetoday]

T
Thanks for saying that as I do not know if this will negativily affect my situation
I need to worry less about it
I anm so tired and I need to be myself around him again
the new me
Upbeat at times happy with my life and real
real again
Your right
he made poor choices and we will never be ok with them
peace
when he dropped the kids off
I was here and just about to leave
dressed nice with makeup I go country dancing saturdays and have made new friends too
I asked if he got my VM he said NO
he asked me not to talk or say anything or he would leave
he didnt want another confrontation and looked sad or exhausted
anyway as I left I said this was our problem we never talked about things in our M
he said you never listened!
It is 14 months and I am ready to listen..let me know when he wants to talk
he will avoid me for the next week or so and then act as if nothing happened is my guess
he isnt ready as he is stil;l in denial and wants to believe its ok to leave
maybe it is? people do it all the time leave M
trade M whatever
I believe he will not find what he is looking for until he goes to God and within
I will try to let it all go
I said what I did maybe he heard probably not
time will tell
I am not afraid of losing him now
peace