FLTC, I think she might still have her own teeth too. Oh sure she does, who am I kidding and my W would never fool around on me either The things we just have to make ourselves believe, eh! Well, yesterday I returned to church for an evening service and the pastor was at the door greeting people, he looked at me and said "Whatis, can I give you a hug?" and we embraced. It was a nice gesture from someone who knows nothing about my marital plight. I don't talk about it at church, I'm guessing it might be time to start letting people into that world. A friend of mine says that I'm pretty bad at letting others support me. Maybe if I let you in, you'll let me down and I've been let down enough these days, thank you very much! But that's the underlying consciousness of Whatis talking, it's that voice that says "do it all yourself". Sometimes being very capable of handling things and carrying on also has it's downside. So maybe it's time to let those I worship with know that Whatis has his battles and their support and prayers are welcome. My doctor says that we in the helping profession are the worst in the world at asking for help for ourselves, it seems rather hypocrititical doesn't it? Tomorrow is Easter and I will drop over to the house in the morning before church. I will deliver my Easter goodies to the girls. W has them for Easter weekend and has not invited me in the morning but I'm going anyway! In the evening we, the four of us, are going to my parents for Easter dinner. We will be a family again for one evening. W remains welcome there. Last night my D10 called me and left a message "I guess you're out Daddy and I'm not sure that people say this but I wanted to wish you a Happy Good Friday" She's the sweetest little kid! Later Dbers
The things we just have to make ourselves believe, eh! Well, yesterday I returned to church for an evening service and the pastor was at the door greeting people, he looked at me and said "Whatis, can I give you a hug?" and we embraced. It was a nice gesture from someone who knows nothing about my marital plight. I don't talk about it at church, I'm guessing it might be time to start letting people into that world. A friend of mine says that I'm pretty bad at letting others support me. Maybe if I let you in, you'll let me down and I've been let down enough these days, thank you very much! But that's the underlying consciousness of Whatis talking, it's that voice that says "do it all yourself". Sometimes being very capable of handling things and carrying on also has it's downside. So maybe it's time to let those I worship with know that Whatis has his battles and their support and prayers are welcome. My doctor says that we in the helping profession are the worst in the world at asking for help for ourselves, it seems rather hypocrititical doesn't it? 
