Hey all, Haven't been on here much. Just journaling I guess, Through my friend that my H is living with he doesn't want a D- he wants his family back and as much as I don't want to continue to live like this I have alot of fear. I know that papers were started again and he still has criminal charges against him but I feel really scared to actually do this- To you folks here that actually filed and went through with it did you feel like this? I keep putting off my second meeting with the lawyer because I well basically I am stalling - for what I don't know. I know I HAVE to D him but damn it is soooo hard as you guys know. I feel so lonely even surrounded by my kids- I feel like I can't make it- I guess I am having a pity party for myself right now. I just am lost- I don't even love him anymore , I actually have a huge crush on someone else- it's not going anywhere but well it's there. Why am I so scared when this is what I need to do?
Lisa
Me:37 H:38 6 kids first bomb 8/05 (ow involved) piecing 7/06 second bomb 3/07 ow involved wash rinse repeat.... huge move to start over 2/11 more affairs H left for good 8/12
