Two things that stick out at me. I am a GAL (Guardian Ad Litem) and I am concerned over the fact she won't allow equal access to the kids (what is the reason) and the fact that you two are discussing anything with the kids.
On the situation- I wish I could offer you advice, but I SUCK right now in my own mess.. so bad I really don't "need" to be giving advice! : - )
M: 39 H: 40 D: 12 S: 9 Married: 10 years Together: 11 years Dday- March 14th, 2008 Bomb-I don't love you-Easter 2008
Currently-living in same home, slowly working back towards a marriage.