thanks,deauxlie-aka-kel- Well, I wish the good signs would be the only ones I see.
Unfortunately, just awhile ago, our S and I were going to the small farmer's market to get some tomatoes, and as we were going, S spotted H in a gas station parking lot, deep in conversation and smiling on a cell phone. We pulled into the lot to say hello, and H when he saw us, pulled up quickly to the air pumps, and got out of his car. He asked what we were doing in the area, and we told him, and he gave me money. I told him that S had spotted him on the cell phone and he said "No I wasn't" I said well S saw you and he said again that he wasn't. I myself could tell he was talking when we drove by at first, but S only confirmed it. H's hands were shaking badly, and when he handed me the money, I thought he would drop it. He kissed me goodbye, and said he would see us at the house, and we drove across the road to get the tomatoes.
You know, I wanted to spit the taste of his kiss from my mouth.
When we got home, we were there first, and wondered why he went the long way home.
When he got here, he was still nervous and shaking from his "ordeal"
Now they are outside working on the clubhouse, and I am sitting here knowing who he was talking to. No freaking doubt in my mind. NONE!!!
And he seems so weird right now, because he knows he is busted, and by our S, too!!
And I wonder should I just let him stew, or say something.
I want to ask him just what can I do to make me good enough in his eyes, good enough to stop cheating on me.
I think Kel, that if it weren't for knowing I have God on my side in this whole fidelity thing, I would just go nuts. But, I think I am going there, anyway.
