God give me the patience and the strength...2

[ddstartingover]

You're wrong-----you are in charge of YOU!!! You may have lost control briefly, you may have lost control of your emotions, but you are in charge of you, and who you are. If you ever forget that read your last post.

You are not in charge of H, or OW----just YOU.

This journey, this test, all of this sh** we are going through will get us to the other side, whatever it might be. For both of us, I hope it's reconcilliation or a new relationship with our H's, our best friends. BUT, it's true you are not in charge of what you WANT---just in charge of YOU---who you are, and your H can't take that away from you. Don't let the OW make you doubt that you are a wonderful person. Don't let your H make you doubt that (I need to learn this one myself)either.

I'm right there with you, and could have written everything you have written in your last two posts, but like all of the other bad stuff, you need to let go of what you did, don't beat yourself up over it anymore---you are in survival mode and lost control briefly.