God give me the patience and the strength...2

[theotherhalf]

Thanks dianamo, I know that I deseve them (2x4's) but have given myself plenty.

you are in charge. You know what is right for you

In these sitches, I really don't think so...

I want to go on loving my H. I want him to come home. I want to stay here on this farm. I want to stay apart of H's family. I want happiness and laughter and love in my life again. I want to hold my H. I want to laugh with him. I want to grow old with my best friend. I want a second chance at my M.

NONE of this is possible as long as H chooses to walk away with OW. I have no charge of any of what I want...