I will be divorced on Monday!! I am trying desperately to reframe my attitude!! I know I will be ok! I know I deserve someone who cherishes me! I know I tried my best! By moving from wife to friend, I am actually moving up on the scale of importance in H's life. Yesterday we were at the cemetary for my MIL and it was there that I decided I needed to bury my tears once and for all. I know it's not that easy, but at least around H I need to present a happy disposition. I am starting my happiness journal today.