H is on probation FINALLY after our fight in 2006. He is working and paying support, again FINALLY!!!
I have been working for about 7 months, it's not much but I love the people I work with and it keeps me busy, and the bills are all paid. The girls are in daycare and LOVE IT, they are learning soo much.
In my sitch with my H (my other life, I've taken to thinking of it as) I've come to realize that I don't love (heck I don't even know) the person that he is today. He's been gone for 2 and a half years almost, he's been living with another woman, he is different. As am I. I am stronger, I have realized that I absolutely do not need him to survive. I have done that. He may have won the battle, but I am winning this war.
I have realized that I miss the companionship, I miss the old relationship, the one that will never come back. I have realized that we are trying to revive a skeleton when we go at this relationship again, duh EMILY! I just don't know where to go from here?
