Nothing really to report this morning. H didn't get home until almost 8 lastnight as he was working on a report. We all spent time together in the family room, but D and I were exhausted and turned in early. H was here for number14 Kalni.
I finally slept good last night. For some stupid reason I set my alarm last night, but I was able to get back to sleep. Ds and I are headed to my parent's house today for the holiday. You probably won't hear from me until Monday, so I hope everyone who is celebrating Easter tomorrow has a happy one.
R 23 years M 20 years Bomb June 2007 S Oct 2007 Ds 11 & 16 Ds and I moved out Aug. 2008
Enjoy the Holiday weekend with the people that care for you. I will be doing the same thing tommorow. Yes we will feel there is a piece of us missing but our families deserve our full attention and love.
I made it to my parent's house and back. It was good to spend time w/ them and they enjoyed seeing their GDs. Spent time w/ my sister's and their families on Easter. I had a really good time and it was great to laugh so much. Of course my dad wanted to talk about my M and I didn't, so that wasn't much fun. D10 kept walking in the room but my dad didn't want to stop prying.
On a good note, I didn't really initiate any contact w/ H. I was very surprised with how much he called and sent texts while we were gone. We'll see what happens when he gets home from work tonight.
R 23 years M 20 years Bomb June 2007 S Oct 2007 Ds 11 & 16 Ds and I moved out Aug. 2008
So, no news, good news I guess. Men are like stamps. The more you spit on them (ignore them) the more they stick on you... (greek kalni's saying). Good job on spiting (sp?)
H worked late yesterday and looked super tired when he got home. He went to read the paper and I thought here we go again. However, after he read the paper he came in the family room where I was. I was laying down on the couch and H ended up sitting at the other end and watching tv with me. We were watching a really stupid show but we were laughing together. I see the old H coming back and feel myself falling for him again. I am so worried about letting my guard down, I fear I'll have my heart broken again.
R 23 years M 20 years Bomb June 2007 S Oct 2007 Ds 11 & 16 Ds and I moved out Aug. 2008
I've just realised how difficult it must for you having him around and still be in the limbo state, considering he had moved out. Your heart cannot be hurt as before. You are wiser, smarter and know how to protect yourself. Don't underestimate my fav Red. Take it slow. You are no longer the victim here(you never were). You should be able to make the ground rules. Think about it.
If only it were that easy. 