Affair is over and WW is responding

[Hope4us]

Didn't do the hug. WW is in one of those backwards steps. And it's really pissing me off. I know she's hurting and really in a messed up place, but after last night I'm beginning to wonder if it won't be me that ends it and not her.

DS15 went to a concert last night. It was just 3 local bands at a community center (one of the bands was 4 of his friends). Because of the floods here and the expressway interchange being closed, if you want to go south you have to go north on back roads about 10 miles and then go south. It makes a 30 minute trip more like almost an hour and a half.

WW took DS15 to the concert as DS19 and I were watching the NCAA's at a sports bar, so I offered to go pick DS15 up when the concert was over. About 10:30 I asked WW if DS15 had said what time the concert was going to be over. I wanted to leave a bit a head of time so he wasn't standing there waiting for 40 minutes after it was done. WW said she'd text him to see if it was getting close. About 5 minutes later DS19 walks into the room and asks WW if DS15 had said when the concert would be over (he was going to go with me to pick DS15 up). WW went off on him and me. Grabbed her phone to text DS15 again bit*hin the whole time about how she'll find out "right now" etc in her most sarcastic voice. DS19 told her to relax. She looked at him and me with the most evil look I've seen in a long time. And this was after her being pretty pissy the whole evening. I got up from the couch and went to the basement to just get away from her. About 15 minutes later she calls down and says "you can leave now if you want in a fairly nice voice.

After getting home I went straight to bed and layed there for quite a while wondering just why I want to make this work with her. She had an affair. The POS is a serial cheatin, alcoholic, abusive lier who dumped her as soon as his wife found out and since that time WW has treated me like sh!t. She has treated me with disrespect, contempt and out right anger and I'm the one doing all the work to guide her back when she should be groveling at my feet begging for forgiveness.

I want so bad to say to her when she gets up:

"If you're so miserable, get the F out. The POS dumped you as soon as his wife found out. He is a real piece of work. Cheats on his wife multiple times. Goes to the bars EVERY DAY. His kids hate him. He started taking herbal supplements he ordered off the internet in June to make certain body parts bigger (OMW told me that one!) and you think he is your 'soulmate'? If that is the kind of POS you are looking for in life, go find one. The kids and I don't deserve the way you're treating us and will be fine without you".

I'm not just blowing off steam here. I'm really considering telling her this. I think I read on another thread someone saying it's easier to detach when they think about everything their wayward spouse has done and said. And they're right. I'm really thinking to do the ultimate in detaching here. Why keep putting myself and my kids through this?