unevitably aboard the D train...

[cat03]

thanks OT, it was much painless than I'd thought it'd be.

LN)))))))))))) thanks for visiting me it's so nice to see you.

I just realized, that if tonight my H would say to me he wants to try to fix things and move back in, it'd be more of the same, more of his aloofness, more of his alienation. He truly was miserable here, I understand not because of me but because of what is eating him inside. He agrees with this, that there is so much wrong with him it will take a long time to set himself right.

I think I'm evolving into the next stage: acceptance. I have been in shock this entire time, not really taking in all that was happening to me. I'm now used to not having him call me nor walk with my cell phone throughout the house. Again, I'm so glad I took off the txt msg feature of my cell or i'd be tempted to check my phone or, heaven forbid, text him.