no expectations 6

[peacetoday]

well H came back with kids
I set a boundry (he will forget but it felt so good and empowering to do)
feel like I walk on egg shells to not rock boat
and Im getting to point that I dont care anymore
I am standing
but further away and I have to remind myself my new stand
I am focusing on my new life.
H is not part of it
If he returns or should want to I will consider
If he doesnt I will be prepared
I want my kids with me
My D 12 cried tonight about her abandonment and her anger toward H
she is very in touch with it and was honest
I am grateful I could be there
It is a true blessing
she came out the other side looking freer and less buredened
I understand the process as I have grieved H already and Im almost done and free myself
I will still continue to pray that God would intervene here as we will need a miracle to repair this mess and it may not be repairable(H)
I will pray god to lead me to the best decisions for my family and myself
thank you all for your continued support
peace