I just found your thread. It is SO similar to my sitch. I can see myself in you, especially the difficulties in going dark. That is so hard for me too. I am getting a practice run on that right now, since H is at our lake house. There is no phone and no cell reception, so I have no choice but to go dark. Maybe by Sunday, when he returns, I'll be used to it. At least that is what I am hoping. I know he needs time to miss me, much like your H. I just have the hardest time with that. I'll be praying for you and your H.
