I agree, all good thoughts. I have indeed asked her everything you pointed out, Dom, she just says she doesn't know...too much noise in her head.
She says that when I am around, she feels herself reverting back to old thought patterns and behavior patterns...plus she says she feels like "it'll all be OK with us" when we are together, but she is confused by her feelings of wanting to stay away. Being on her own apparently will give her clarity on what she wants. ACK!!
Treeman, she wrote it this morning, about 2 hrs after I left her.
I still think we will end up together, because when I get a peek behind the curtain I can see that she misses me, misses us, and has some fear about going forward on her own.
The tone of the email above is a little harsh...but that's how she is on email. I'm not looking through rose colored glasses when I say 98% of the time she is absolutely sweet and affectionate toward me.
One thing I forgot to mention from last night, when she had half a bottle of wine in her. She said "you're right under my nose, aren't you?" Cleverly, I said "Huh?" She said "Everybody I know tells me the best thing in my life is right under my nose. What am I going to do with you?" "That's up to you," I said "but I have a few ideas".
I have time to let her figure out whatever the hell she needs to figure out. I have lots to keep me busy!
