Sometimes it seems like the ow won it all. She gets my man AND (more importantly) time with D4. Or, maybe she just won time with my D but H is no prize after all???.. hmmm....
Life just seems to get more complicated every week even though the divorce should be final within a couple of months. I am no longer denying that it is going to happen although H hasn't stopped waffling.. Sometimes still almost coming out and saying that he wants to try again; but, his actions always tell the whole story. He's still with the ow and that suits him just fine. Although, he hasn't moved all the way out, he spends little time at home. Those days he is away have become, in fact, a relief for me.
Of course, time away from D4 sends me into a panic but I'm coping the best I can. There are even days when I can say that I'm almost back to my old self again.. And, that feels soooo good... To laugh again.. wow.. at one point, I never thought I would. It just goes to show you that somehow we actually DO survive
