Supermom meets Cookie Chick

[lizzy]

Hi Jenny, just checking in on you. I hope you are having an enjoyable weekend.

[phbear316]

Jenny

Hi, my cookie gourmet. Hope you had a nice weekend!
I will pray for you tonight, and be thinking about you tomorrow, good luck with lawyer.

On a side note Well said Hope. My if i did not know any better, just minus the kids, i feel i could have written what you did to jenny. Wow truly describes my H.


Anyway luck and love tomorrow Jenny, (((hugs)))

bear

[phbear316]

Jenny

Thinking about you.. hope today was not as painful as you thought it would be.

miss you, and thinking about you.

Sending you a giant bear hug (((((HUGS JENNY))))))

be strong, just like you always are.

bear

[W2G]

Hi Jenny,

Yes, I hope your appointment went well today!

And wondering if you've completed all of your cookie orders?

W2G

[JennyF]

Hey Guys,
I'm sorry if I've fallen off the face of the earth for a few days. The weekends I have the kids I don't get a chance to post...for obvious reasons! But also I've just really been trying to switch gears and pay attention to myself. I'm doing a lot of soul searching trying to figure out my own fate in all of this. I'm tired of looking at this as H's way of controlling of my life. I can't control these circumstances, but I can control what I do with them from here on out.

My conversation with my L got postponed until Wed. Not a bad thing...I'm still deep in thought about what I want regarding the custody. I need to make sure that above all else I'm making the right choices for my kids and not letting my ego get in the way of those decisions. I'm trying to just enjoy the time I do have with my kids and not dwell on the not having them. The answers will come to me I'm sure...maybe I have to stop looking so hard for them.

H is not happy with me and it's coming across each time I see him. But for possibly the first time in all of this, I don't care. I really don't. I've got nothing more to lose with the exception of my dignity and self respect and I'm slowly coming to the realization that he can't do anything to take those from me unless I allow it. Not going to happen.

So on to better things! I bought new jeans tonight...2 pairs!!! One was a size 29 and the other a size 6!!! I'm sorry to brag, but I haven't been this size in...a really long time. I feel SO good! My Mom (the wonderful woman she is) gave me $$ for new jeans and boy did I find some good ones tonight! My girlfriend and I got out for a few hours while H had the kids. It was lots of fun and she bought a pair too. I spend way to much on them, but I don't care!

WTG...I may have an extra box of cookies if you're interested. I have a really crazy week but maybe we can figure something out. E-mail me if you want.


Bear...you're so sweet. Thank you so much for all of your hugs, trust me they're felt.

Well, I think that's my update! Tomorrow D is home with me...we have gymnastics in the morning and she's coming to the dentist with me in the afternoon. SIL is coming along for the day...should be interesting.
But the best part about tomorrow is that I get to wear my new jeans!!!
J~

[phbear316]

Jenny

WHOO HOO!!! On the jeans, you go girl you work it. Nice size 6. I will never see that size, but it does feel good when the number goes down doesn't it.

Glad you have had time to think things out. LIke i said you will make the right decision. You will

bear

[Startingover2]

Yeah on the jeans. I know what a good feeling that is..and hopefully someday I will be out of these stretchy clothes!

You are doing great separating your feelings about h and the D from what is best for your kids. I still think that H having S overnight is not ok yet. He is so little and needs the consistency.

Good luck in your L talk tomorrow!!

[blindsided1]

What have you been up to? How are things going for you? I see you posting on other threads, but not on your own. Just wanted to check in on you. Have a Happy Easter.

[JennyF]

Wow, I can't believe it's been 4 days since I've posted.

I've been busy finishing up cookie orders. I sold all of my boxes and made myself some extra money! The One of a Kind Show is on and this is a semi-annual we always attend together. I treated myself to some really nice things with my cookie money and it felt great.

H is acting extremely angry with me. We haven't spoken about anything since he last told me he wasn't budging. My L conversation was ok...just said for me to stay firm and just let him take court action if that's the way he wants to go. He is SO mad.
My SIL hung out with me for the day on Tuesday and she did not know of H's plans to move in with OW (they live in the same house right now!). She was pissed. She said she didn't think her Mom even knew. Weird...because I think she does.
Anyway, SIL's friend bought some cookies from me and came to pick them up today. She told me that SIL's and MIL are totally on my side and they are really pissed and just don't know what to do about H. This was good to hear because I'm been staying so removed from them, that I kind of thought that they'd really accepted things. Now they just have to learn how to speak up to him about it.
It made me realize though just how detached I am. For the first time I can honestly honestly say that I have dropped the rope. It's been over a week now of feeling this way...I don't really even care that H is acting all mad at me. This is quite liberating actually.
I have recently been told that there are a LOT of friends who think that H is moving ridiculously fast and some have shared this with him...but of course it makes no difference.
I'm glad to hear that people are still seeing things this way, I'm trying not to care what people think...but it's nice to feel validated sometimes.

Other than that, no updates.
I had Easter morning with D this morning because it's H's weekend. My parent's are away so it's just me. I have lots of friends though and have received a couple invites for dinners and brunches. Plus it is my best friends b-day so we'll be celebrating that. I'm just learning to live in this moment and be ok in this moment...it's working.

I've also received a couple other orders for cookies since the Easter ones were such a hit. So it looks like I just may be getting this business going!
Gotta run!
J~

[Startingover2]

You sound so great!!!! I am so impressed. Your H must be getting the impression that your life is better without him. You are doing your cookie thing, spending time with friends and going about life. I really think that you are the true example of GAL and PMA.

However your life turns out with or without H, you are going to be a better, stronger woman for it!!