Yes, I finally snapped - had a lightbulb moment, call it what you will....I no longer sit here dreaming of H coming home, I no longer imagine what it would be like, I sit here thinking of what I want out of life and why...who is dear to me and why...
I am happy.
I have cut most contact with H. Only very essential kids stuff or finance stuff.
I no longer wanted the crumbs, for real this time...I am worth more, better than that.
All I want now is to really cut loose and find my way on my own path. It feels like a healthy thing to do.
Hopefully the future brings some sort of co-parenting or 'friendship', but for now, I just want to be by myself and I want no 'distractions' from H. Yes, it means that I am still stuck on him to a point, because anger and pain, still have to do with not wanting to see him much. BUT another side is that I feel confident to go ahead an live my life WITHOUT him. And I am happy about that.
The kids see ow very often now. They have mixed feelings but on the whole I think they like her. I am happy for my children.
I wish you all a very happy Easter Weekend.
Much love and thanks for all your support always
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
