I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
I'm out of this marriage. If he wants me he'll have to come find me. I can't deal with this. I'll move on and GAL for me and D but I have to put him out of my head and heart
Jen
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
No Kerry I didn't receive the papers. I had a stupid fight with H that turned into me throwing a drink at him (in front of friends I might add). This morning he came to get D and told me that he's removing the request for mutual D and going to sue me for D.
You see in the beginning he filed for mutual D which is a nice D. We were going to buy this apartment and he'd let me keep D and the 2 of us (D and I) could live in the apartment. Now however if he sues me for D it'll get ugly and he said he'll seek custody of D.
We talked and argued today but I think he might reconsider suing for D and continue with the mutual D. God I hope so! I really F***ed up last night and I think I may pay dearly for it.
Jen
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
For sure! Going back to the dark hole again today. I don't know why I can't stay there but I keep popping my head up and commiting the same damn mistakes I have always made.
I find that the problems in our M are solvable but I don't give H time to see it. We don't have infedility to tear us apart, we have a beautiful little girl who loves us both unconditionally, we loved each other, laughed a lot and we knew what we wanted but somehow blew it.
I'm sad and angry at myself for not doing the right thing and now I feel like I'm paying the ultimate price for being a hotheaded woman.
How in the heck am I going to go into "damage control" now?
Jen
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
Jen, I'm so sorry to hear about the latest developments. Both you and H need to calm down right now. He probably said those things in the heat of the moment and may reconsider just filing for mutual D as you two discussed previously. We all have major backslides from time to time. You may want to apologize to H for throwing the drink at him and then just give him space. Hang in there! You're in my thoughts. ((((((Jen))))))
Me47 H46 S13 M16 Piecing since May/09
"Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." Lou Holtz
Hi Addie. Thanks for the advice. I'm calm now after begging him for 30 minutes this morning not to sue me.
We spoke for about an hour this morning when he picked up D. At the end he told me that in truth he had no idea what he was going to do. So he has started faltering already. Hopefully he'll stick with the origianl plan. The mutual D papers have been filed. He told me he was going to withdraw those and submit new papers.
He's so sad about everything. Told me that at his C session on Wednesday he spent 1hr 20min of a 1hr 30min session crying. The doctor wanted to put him on ADep. but he refused.
I need to step the understanding/validation aspect fast.
Jen
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
