I have been reading DR all day. I have figured a few things out. My behaving like an emotional wreck when I see him has just made things worse. That can't be attractive to him. I have got to stop that, and I will. I also realized something else. There are some good signs in our sitch. He hasn't filed yet, and he has agreed to wait on that. He also always chooses the words "right now" when he talks about what he is thinking with us. That is a small indication that he isn't sure what he really wants. I am going to take that as a positive. Lastly, whenever he calls to talk to the kids, he ALWAYS asks me how I am doing. I have said "NOT good" in a pretty pathetic way every time before. The last few times we spoke he didn't even ask. I realize now that was my fault. He doesn't want to know that he is hurting me. I have got to get it together for myself.
Thanks for all the advice. I am going to start DBing like crazy now. I just went out and did some yard work. I don't know that he will notice, but it is something I have NEVER done willingly. There are some plants that have been sitting for a while that needed to be planted. I am taking care of that today. Baby steps...even if he doesn't notice, it makes me feel like I am doing something.
