Aaaaah! okay, so I am a little slow on the uptake!



It would be nice to be very happily married...one of the big obstacles will be his family...they didn't like me much before...especially his mother...jealousy on her part, I think. That is a BIG thing for him...his family...he is like the Patriarch and it is this huge macho sh*t for him. I don't really believe that he will choose me over them, which is why he is okay with where we are at.

I hold on to the hope that this will not affect the future but I have to admit that it is seems very bleak. I know we should not let our families intrude or worry about them...he used to keep his family out of our business and I was the one that sorta let my parents talk too much...then I had this big blow up with them and I didn;t talk to them for a couple of years and then he told my brother that we were getting a divorce and that I would need my parents support...I mended fences and my parents have really just stayed out of it...they were shocked and they have lost all respect for MLM

Anyhow, I should probably tell you that pretty much all the estrogen is depleted in my system and I find myself having very aggressive thoughts---especially regarding him. LOL!

Hope that doesn't freak you out.


Aug '06: H moved out
July '08: H had a kid with the OW
May 12 '09: emancipation day

"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller