Feeling hope

[LuvMyHusband]

Thanks for the words of encouragement Saffie. This is really hard. No, I do NOT want to go back to my old ways. I really didn't like myself very much back then. I truly want trust and faith in our relationship. I keep telling myself IF he is doing anything that he shouldn't be then it's on him not me. I can't control what he does so what does it matter if I know. The cycle has to stop somewhere. He has also told me that he has never felt like he even had the chance to feel guilty and stop doing things on his own because I always knew what he was doing which just made him angry. He wants the opportunity and control to make changes himself. That's understandable. I can't help but worry though. I do not want any more hurt between us.