I have tried so hard the last 2 months. I tried linking my story below, hope it works. I have tried DB'ng so hard but to no avail. Even after the OW went all psycho and called our home, sent me texts, sent me pics etc he still defends her. It's been nothing but lies. He tells me it's over and I know he tries but never goes more than a week. And then it starts up again. I notice the little signs, we fight he denies and tells me that he'll leave if I don't stop. Then I cry and say I'll stop and he knows I need him here for financial reasons.As of last week he insisted that there was no more contact, but then he started leaving early and coming home late and lying about overtime. Well tonight was the last straw! I am losing all of my self respect. Part of me wanted to look the other way and be strong and hope that in time she'd get tired of waiting for him and he would get tired of her pushiness.I tried Db'ng and tried being happy around him..I only cried when alone. But I think that no matter what i did he couldn't keep away. I grew tired of not having a husband and knowing that he's in love with someone else( or thinks he is)So tonight I called her and she picked up..he was with her..His little pit stop on the way to work.She sounds so confident now, not like the scared hurt person calling my house last month begging him for reasons why he lied to her.And i'm the one hurting now..So I told him to go..I told him I would pack all of his clothes and I did. Everything is in the foyer in garbage bags, wasn't about to give him my suitcases.
And he's mad at me and says I'm not acting like an adult. Thing is he wanted it all..He never wanted to leave. The OW lives with her mother and Illegitimate son. He lied to her and told her he would leave yet all the times I told him to leave he wouldn't go.He knows it will be a stuggle to pay all of the bills here and pay for a new place with her.Who knows maybe they ARE meant to be together, or maybe he'll wake up and realize what a mistake he's making. But I doubt that..I have to face that it may truly be over. Part of me feels like I'm making a mistake and i'm being too hasty but 2+ months of crying is too much..I am losing control of my life and I need to get my life back.I plan to stay strong and show him that i'll be ok, that my girls will be ok..But I'm so so sad that our beautiful family is now torn apart.
