you did what you had to do to stay whole and together for your kids. Don't beat yourself up, if the physical part of your marriage was not important to you, you would not have tried to replace it. FG, sorry but I think there is a gender issue here. To listen to your kids cry for their father is probably one of the most painful things in motherhood. Finding solace with another adult is understandable. Some things are just not bearable alone. Men deal with loss if a wife leaves, but when a Husband leaves a wife with young kids, she not only deals with her unhappiness, it is magnified 10 fold when your children suffer
