Out of the Blue?

[kturnernc]

Thanks Mike. you made me smile. Meanwhile, the W called to say good night for the kids. I told her that I was sorry for the bit of an arguement that we had. That this was hard on me and that I was trying to make the best of a crappy situation. That i missed the kids, i missed her, and i missed being a family. That I have been trying to do good and avoid arguements and was sorry that I slipped.

I know that I slipped a bit. I feel better for saying those things to her. But her overall response was still cold. I could feel her wanting to say something but not. Either that or I was just trying to be hopeful. It is hard to say. As I said, I know i slipped. But I do feel better that I told her that. I am still positive but feel horrible that I slipped. And of course, am a bit depressed. I hate this whole situation. Hate it. It is going to be a long road. Looking at the date, it has only been 2 months. Two very long and exhausting months. I am going to try and summon the strength to move forward. I need to rely on my friends more. And start doing those hobbies.