Affair is over and WW is responding

[Hope4us]

I know the bad mood is a good sign while withdrawal is going on. I thought we were through the worst of that withdrawal, but I guess I have to accept that only being 7 weeks into withdrawal is not enough time for her to get past having bad days here and there. Still sucks. I guess I should do like I do monitoring my weight. Only look at it once a week. Maybe I should look at whole weeks to see if we're making progress, and this week we've definitely moved a head.

I talked to my friend Deb this afternoon. Deb is my friend from middle school (her hubby is one of my close friends and Deb and WW became close after we got married). Deb had an affair of her own about 10 years ago and her and hubby got through it and are stronger than ever. Anyway, Deb said that WW is probably feeling down and the "special undies" the last few days are just to make herself feel better. She actually thought WW may be wearing them for me. Not sure I buy that as WW hasn't let me touch her in 5 months (and I mean touch) other than an occasional time she'll let me squeeze her shoulder on the way to bed. Man, I'd KILL for a hug. But, Deb says that with OM rejecting her 7 weeks ago (when the affair ended in WW's mind) and now me GAL and using the LRT that she thinks WW is trying to feel sexy for me. Again, not sure I buy it, but that sure helped the ego. I told Deb the other night the barmaid at a sports bar I was at brushed my hand while taking my credit card and that touch about sent me through the roof! 7 months with no intimacy is a tough thing when we were still intimate 2-3 times a week right up to the bomb. Heck, WW and I went to Fla in June, just the two of us and were intimate 4 out of the 5 nights we were there and that was while she was in the middle of the affair. And she's never loved me. Right.

Thanks guys, you picked me up. This might actually be a good thing. If she's in a bad mood when I get home, maybe DS19 and I will go watch the NCAA's tonight AND tomorrow!