Hey Purr... I know what you mean! Every day is a slog like walking through wet cement. I try to distract myself with exercise and being outside and t.v. I feel the same ! I make myself do stuff, but exactly that, its like wading through concrete. I know you feel alone, but you're not. Alot of us here feel the same and are equally feeling alone (me included!). In fact, its Easter and I am quite literally alone, sat in this big ole house in the middle of nowhere, miles from anyone who loves me. I have been thinking alot too today about how humiliated I feel to have loved him so much for him to walk off like that. But he is having a crisis and he cant help how he is behaving.

Although your W appears strong, I bet shes not doing taht well either. She is weapy and tearful and stressed out about work. Also...she feels trapped in life and is wrongly blaming you for that. One day she will wake up and realise what a fool she has been and how she lost this great man (hopefully you will still be around for her to apologise to your face!). I'm hoping that will happen.

Dont feel like a fool. You loved her with an open heart. Its just your terrible misfortune that this happened to you (and me), we didnt see it coming, we dont deserve it, its unfair, it isnt happening to lots of other couples I know, so why me..etc etc. Theres no logic to it, its just a really sh*tty thing to happen. So dont feel like a fool, you were right to love her. You just didnt expect this to happen and why would you? You'd have to be a very perssimistic doom merchant to expect this!

Have you seen your Doc? The symptoms of flu might be nervous exhaustion. If you dont want to take meds (as I didnt), try something alternative for you..deep massage, or acupuncture. I'm so sorry you feel so low. Try not to get overwhelmed thinking about everything at once. Just be upset that you miss her, thats all. Dont worry about the future, the house, selling up, where you will live, none of that. It may not happen and even if it does, worry about it in real time, not in advance! And I think you should visit your local animal shelter and buy that cat.. its easy to move house with cats, especially kittens..they cant even be let outdoors for the first 6 months, as they need all their vaccinations first. I cuddle my cat every day and it does really really help. They greet you when you walk through the door, they jump up on your bed the minute you wake up. Its only a small thing, but its a massive help I'm sure.

Ali xxx

Did you have another MC session booked in? If not, can you go ahead and suggest dates to her for when shes back?


Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs
IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08
Reconciled 05/09 now married!
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