I am sorry I came down so hard on you. (((HUGS))) Maybe you can shift your focus to getting yourself happy, working on your own "stuff", putting yourself in a good place, and THEN we can talk about W stuff?
I am really proud you got the number to look into counseling. Did you call it yet?? I totally understand wanting that to be a private call.
I'm glad you already have two bicycles!! If we are ever in the same spot we can go bicycling together!!!