It's natural to have these doubts - you have been through such a lot. Just don't do anything that he could perceive as you going back to your old ways. You need to try to trust him and act as if it is all going as it should be. DO NOT SNOOP OR CHECK UP ON HIM. Take him at face value unless he really shows himself not to be playing things straight.

I felt like that about my H for a long time but he has never done anything to make me now. Just know that these fears are normal, acknowledge them, and then store them away - they are just destructive.

Think about how far you have come. You can do this. \:\)

Saffie
me 46
H 46
M in 1986
D20,D18,S16,D13
H's A 01/05 to 07/06
H recommitted to M 07/06
renewed vows 09/06
Going from strength to strength