he's only 29 but already having a mid-life crisis. we've been married almost 5 years and together for 10. we always had a really great relationship until about 2 months ago. this is when he decided his band is more important than i am. and that when he goes on the road with the band he should be able to sleep with as many women as he wants. he already put our house up for sale b/c he said he doesn't want anymore responsibilities in life and he would be happier living on a tour bus.
2 days ago he moved out. he said this will give him the chance to figure out what he wants. he's not sure he wants a divorce quite yet but said he's not in love with "us" anymore. he promised me he hasn't cheated but that he has wanted to. and he's trying to do the right thing by leaving me before that happens. (gee thanks!)
his entire family is on my side and thinks he's being a child. besides what's happening between us he is shirking his responsibilities at work, which is his family business. they are a very tight knit family but were ready to fire him for doing too much band business at work.
after reading michelle's book and talking to one of the counselors my head is a little clearer. i've stopped the constant crying and begging and pleading. but i am still miserable. waiting around for him to figure out what he wants is driving me crazy!! i've tried to get involved with some new hobbies and my friends are being really supportive but unfortunately don't live in the same state as me. i moved to new york for him and all of our friends are really his friends.
part of me just wants to give up and move. i don't feel like i should stay in a relationship that makes me feel so bad about myself. the other part of me is freaking out thinking about how i can't live without him.
life is just not fair. i'm so lost right now.
Me: 31 H: 29 T: 10 yrs M: 4 1/2 yrs 01/08: MLC 03/17/08: H moved out no kids 3 dogs
