Worried I found DB too late #2

[newnamenewlife]

Hi CW,
I'm still fixated on how your kids integrate you spending time together as a family even though you are separated. Isn't it confusing to them--ie why can we all do stuff together some of the time but not all of the time? Why does Daddy stay for dinner but then leave? Do the kids know that he might come home eventually?

I know, this is my own issue--the one I am trying to grapple with as we anticipate telling the kids. I guess all kids and families are different in what makes sense. I feel like if my H opts to live elsewhere, then I will need my home to myself (with kids, of course). I will need time without him in order to heal. I'm already making the biggest compromise of all by even contemplating separation--which is his wish, not mine.

yadda, yadda, yadda--I exhaust and bore myself with my endlessly spinning thoughts.