I know you are struggling and life is not fun. I thought of throwing in the towel and just disappearing, but we both know that can't be done. However, it was nice to think about leaving the pain for a while.
In any event, let us know what you need and we'll keep you in our thoughts along the way.
I'll talk to you later, my friend.
RTL PS - I started the parenting evaluation process and I'd like to fill you in on it sometime. You can check my threads for what I've posted on it and you can e-mail me and we can discuss specifics as well. RTL