Back on the Roller Coaster - OW still around

[fooled again]

Mike,

It does sound like she wants a clean getaway, but then again, there is no way to know what is really going on in her head. She's really confused and maybe thinks this is the only way to rid herself of her demons. She doesn't realize that they will follow her wherever she goes until she deals w/ them. You need to be really strong and I guess you need to decide if you are going to keep the door to your R unlocked even though she has chosen to close it.

I feel as though something inside of me has clicked this past w/end. Maybe it's just a small phase, but I don't have that same urgency to get my H to move back home. My logical mind tells me that to have him back is the best thing for all of us, that it is worth it. But there is another part of me all of a sudden that is saying, is all this work, effort, pain, worth it? Will you really be happy in the end? Maybe I just need to have more time to work on me, to figure out who I am and what I want. Maybe I'm not quite ready for him to come home. It's a strange feeling and I don't quite know what to make of it, so I find it interesting that you mention that you read about WAS coming back and the LBS walking away. My has started traveling for work and will be doing quite a bit of it in the next few weeks. I guess that'll give me some time to think.

FA