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[BEAUTYandWAH]

I have to write something about today... I think its wired..

My H had kids from yesterday night and he called this morning saying that he needs to go to apply job and it has to be NOW. I was at work and had flexible time but I didn't feel like go at the time, so "well... can you wait for a while?". As usual, when things don't go as he wanted, he gets mad. I led him mad for a while and offered him that I could do it the next one hour but that was only time.

When I went to his place, he was grumpy and still arguing about things don't go the way he wants. And he went to his bedroom and crying... (WTF????... it is wired... ) After a conversation, we came to mutual agreement and the problem was solved.

A few hours later, he told me that he mostlikly has the job. We both became in the good mode and were even joking around. And I told him, "I have to go back to work but can you do my laundry..? I got tons and I will give you money??" It was a joke but he said he would do it because he wants money. So, well... if he says so (but I didn't think he would do it)

End of the day, I called him about the kids and asked him where they were, and he said "I'm home".. so I asked "yours?" he said "no. yours"... ".... okay.. umm. I will be home soon"

When I got home, he did a little cleaning and did the laundry for me and said "I am doing for free, I don't want money haha".

Again.. wired.. ex-husband to be is doing my laundry..

Around the dinner time, I told him that he should stay for the dinner because he helped me out. He said that he will go to gym for about one hour and "I will be home after that".. and he did come on time. again,.. wired..

Had good dinner, watched movie with kids and lots of laughing.. and he said good night to kids and was about to leave. He came to me and gave me a hug and said "the dinner was great, thank you".....again wired..

After the hug, we talked for a little while about my job (I told him that I would need to go back to grad school one day if I want more from current position) and he listened the whole time and looked at my eyes, said "I am 100% with you if you want to go school. I know that's what you want"

Wired.. he has not been a listner for a long time and he listened to me.

He has been very nice (it is only half day)and I think it is just wired.

Oh.. the last thing, he said I should get a dog and he will take care of it together. "are you going to be responsible 50%? like financially, walk, doctor appointments and many other things.. of course after you get a job" and he said yes.

BUT he has no show that he misses me or wants to be with me. So just wired...