I think I feel smothered

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Thanks deauxlie. Things are okay. Still having trust issues and the whole sex thing seems to be a problem. But he tells me everyday that he loves me and that he has everything that he wants right here. Would love to believe him, just can't. We have been really busy with our business so that at least helps keep me occupied. At least I am able to not think about the A every waking moment. Sometimes I feel that I obsess over it and it drives me crazy. But all in all i think I am doing a little better. Haven't had much time to be in here journalling lately and I know I should be. It does help. I find that my H gets very jealous of me being in here so I have been trying to back off. I don't think that it has been helping me by not being in here. Guess we'll have to try to compromise. Anyways I hope evryone else is doing well.