I know the fake version well--- very well. They know us better then even we know ourselves.
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The you I see today is not the Cagz that your H sees. He might think he knows you, but he'd be wrong. He only thinks he knows you when you take his bait and react the way you used to react--"the reason he left". (Oh boy, do I know that one firsthand.) But he really doesn't know you anymore. If he did, he'd know that you are a fabulous woman--not only the mother of his children, but a truly beautiful woman on the inside AND the outside. And he'd have given you the benefit of the doubt.
Wow wow and wow!! I have a friend who calls it the dance. She siad that I have changed the dance. You are so very right H is EXPECTING me to react like before. AND there have been times that I have...been for the most part---I am different.
Last year this time I found reasons to call- email etc. We were "Seeing" each other every other weekend and stuff...but I aws needy. I did the crying etc. That part of me does not show its face anymore and hasn't for a long time.
THe part that is hard is that he knows how loyal I am. He has watched my friendships/family relationships and knows I don't quit on people. SO I often do wonder if he will ever realize that I have let him go.
hmmm just wonder
So perish that thought and give yourself a big pat on the back. You deserve it!
Oh yeah, Cagz? I love your mom. She rocks!
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
