Hello Mr. MLC part deux!!

[mymonkeybug]

Kerry-

I really wish I could do this right now. The betrayal feels so much more intense now than it did when he left...odd?!?!

I want to call him and talk to him and basically tell him I give in and he can have and do what he wants and that the kids and I will be gone out of his life for good. And then I want to just pack up our 3 lives and start new and fresh in a totally new town/state where no one knows my business and I can truly start a new life and maybe find a man that hopefully can become my best friend and soul mate and not betray me like H has.

I mean at this point do I really even want to put forth any more effort into trying to DB my marriage when he is obviously so certain that he wants it over? I really feel like someone who has just been beaten and left for dead. But at the same time I want to get up and fight for myself and kids but don't want to fight too hard and run the risk of pushing him farther away if there is any chance over the next 12 months he could have a change of heart.

Oh boy....never thought I would be here. But then again none of us did.