Back in January when we had a real rough patch while finalizing the separation agreement she did tell me she though divorce was the likely outcome. But she's never actually said she wants a divorce. In fact, even as recently as the week after Christmas she has said she wasn't pursuing a divorce.
As for being involved with someone else, I strongly suspect she's been doing some dating but nothing substantial. However I do have a deep seated feeling that she's getting more serious on the idea of dating. She won't say and the very, very, very few times I brought it up she's gotten a bit defensive and said this isn't about someone else being involved. I've also had access to her journal and she's written in it a good bit on this as well. But I do think now that we are officially separated and have a signed doc she's exploring. Shoot I've explored it as well.
Does she want a divorce, hell I have no idea. Her actions and words seem to sometimes say no. But my fear there is she's just trying to be nice. Things like inviting me to dinner on Sunday nights, joining me and the girls at two recent outings, sharing pictures of activities with her and the girls, asking me about my day and stuff like that. Then again maybe she's having a hard time letting go. Who knows. All I know is I have hit a rough patch personally and am trying to get through it and heal my heart. Reconciliation is not longer my goal, my goal is to get me completely straightened out so I can be in a healthy relationship. Would I prefer that to be with my wife, absolutely. But only if she's gotten herself straightened out as well.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
