Me -- I'm really torn between looking for a place here and a job there. I don't want to have an e-mail conversation at work about it, but at some point I'd like to see if we could have a conversation about where we might be.
W -- I don't have an answer right now other than that I certainly can't afford to financially support the kids on my own in that house - and you taking a job just to be closer but at a really huge paycut doesn't help.
I am tired and I don't know if I even want to reconnect emotionally - I am too tired just trying to manage the day to day. I don't see at this point what could possibly be in the area that would be a good job for you. I think there would be dramatic consequences for your career - that I know you are willing to sacrifice, but you have a kid that will enter college in a couple years and others that depend on you financially and otherwise.
Honestly, if you were to move up here now, I dont see how living together as a family is an option right now. You don't understand any of my anger and resentment and probably never will. Really, I feel like you being down there keeps things at status quo. If you moved up here now, things would progress in a way that you wouldn't like.
I just said thanks for the response and that I understand some of the anger and resentment, just not the level. And also that I am sorry you feel that strongly...
