Well it's probably been two weeks since I posted anything about our situation. Hard to believe its been nearly 18 months to the day I got the ILYBANILWY bomb and 16 months since our separation began.
So that realization along with a few other things in life have in the last week or so really set me back. I seemed to be finally moving forward good only to be dealt this set back. F(*&'n A it'd sure be nice to not do this!!
So I bought myself the book Mars and Venus, Starting Over. It's been a bit of a slow read for me because of the emotional aspects of reading and dealing with my feelings. But I think its going to help me heal this rather broken heart. One thing I definitely have done is not allow myself to fully go through the anger phase because anger was an issue for me. Not that I was lashing out or being abusive or such but I was bitter deep down inside and didn't have much patience for anything. I really addressed that early on and it helped greatly. But now I need to allow myself to be angry about the whole situation so I can be done with the anger. Why? Because not allowing myself to be angry is getting me stuck in sadness and sorrow. One can't have their heart heal if you are stuck. So my next step, find a way to vent my anger in a constructive, healing manner. Exercise sounds like a great idea, especially lifting weights.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
