Once again, you are right Val \:\) I do not think it will change anything about him but I do think it alleviates some stuff inside of me.

I think that is why I got to this point. It was me realizing ..no matter what I do.. It will not change a thing about this situation. But If I am doing it for myself ..why would I care if I did.

Now, I am done saying my peace. I'm not one to continue doing it. And I do feel better letting H know how I felt for once. It wasnt about him. That felt good.