well, here we are, the anniversary of the bomb. do the rest of you remember the day like it was yesterday? because I swear I remember every single moment of it. guessing that will pass over time.
will muddle thru the day. am really busy so that helps. but yeah, I am sad. but also not in the same place as last year, so that is a good thing. gonna take a little walk around the sadness, let myself feel it and explore it for a bit, then will let it go.
and going to hug my kids a little tighter today. this isn't the life I wanted for them, but I know I can still offer them so much. I can't offer them what i wanted, that part isn't in my hands, but I can be the best mom I can be and that is something. hopefully the stats won't hit them too hard in the end.
the good thing that has come from all of this I suppose is meeting my IC (found her a year ago today...yep, no flies on me! lol). she is amazing, and I have grown so much. so I can say in spite of my sadness, I'm also very happy because I am a better person today than I was a year ago. so in a way, I guess I'll celebrate that fact, as well as mourne the losses I feel.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
