Right Where I Belong

[psluke]

Hi LNL,

Yes, Tx and I have discussed getting engaged but that is not serious until we spend the time together we have planned on.

He isn't advising me on my house. I have discussed the house some with him because if we were to get married the decisions I am going to make now would affect us both. Houses here aren't selling and this house would likely be around for a good long while before selling.




Hi Happy,

You are so nice. Hugs. Really I do plan to be careful. I have plans for my friends to be around when I meet Tx and during his visit.

I did hear they cut the rates and I hope the mortgage rates follow! What a wild weekend it was in the financial world though!




Hi Jill,

You are a sweetie!

If you all had not shared what you have I wouldn't be so cautious now. Tx says I analyze everything. Well, he is right in regards to him and until he proves himself I will continue to be wary of him and his plans.

I am happy right now. It was so wonderful to go to the cluster shows again and I wandered anywhere I wanted without the thought of seeing J and D even crossing my mind. I didn't realize that till later! I was so glad. It made for a much nicer show.




Barb,

Thank you.

Aren't we always harder on ourselves? I have to see this through. I just don't want to upset you or anyone else here. I really am thanks to all of you being much more cautious!




Karen,

I wasn't upset with you and I'm NOT upset with you in any way, shape or form! I know you are friends with some of the ladies and did not realize the other person was that close to anyone. It was you I felt I had put in the awkward position and I felt that was unfair of me. Obviously I also put the other person in an awkward position as well. My intent was not to do that with anyone! I simply still wanted someone to talk too when the bb was no longer an option. So to me that was my being selfish by asking you and the other party to listen and discuss this subject with me. I truly do apologize to you. It was never my intent to do that to either of you! I know you wish me well. I consider you a friend, one I want very much to meet. I will stay safe and let someone know where I am.




Hi Wonder,

Did you mean the quote of mine about David you posted bothers you? I don't let it bother me often anymore. It was on my mind because Monday was the 5 year anniversary of when D and J filed for their divorces and it is a date I can't easily forget. I was over it by the next day, but yes Monday I was definitely out of sorts! I think because this was my first year back at the cluster and then the only day I saw them was Sunday in the same area she was in when she announced the divorce I didn't know I was getting, that they were both filing for the following day. I think since this was my first full year back at the cluster like that and the date that next year will be much easier. It is getting those firsts out of the way I think that is the hardest!

On the engagement front that is very premature talking! We have of course discussed it because of the distance between us and the difficulty of getting together. We are both looking forward to the summer and he has promised he is cutting his workload way back. He scheduled it so he had no free time after his wife died because he wanted no free time to think. He just spent all of his time working. If he doesn't follow through on that I will take it he isn't serious after all, but I think he is and is just, as he says, "the most trying person I know"!